Lebaran Is Coming !!!! ^^

Wawhh! Lebaran is an inch ahead :) I can't wait to celebrate that with my loved ones. Wearing new clothes and gathering with family are other lovely things I can get from Lebaran. 

Even though Lebaran is still tomorrow, I've got some texts from friends. Some of the texts, I ignore because I think that's a common saying that is forwarded and sent again to other people. The rest, I read and I'm mesmerized by that saying. 

Here is my favorite saying:

Lebaran kurang 1 hari lagi. Aku ingin jadi orang pertama yang minta maaf :)

- Untuk kamu yang MENYAYANGI ku:

makasih telah membuatku menjadi orang yang begitu sempurna..

- Untuk kamu yang pernah MENYAKITI ku:

makasih telah mengajarkan arti kesabaran dan semoga kamu tidak akan pernah merasakan sakit yang aku rasakan..

- Untuk kamu yang pernah AKU SAKITI:

maafkanlah kekhilafanku.. aku hanyalah manusia yang jauh dari kesempurnaan..

- Untuk yang sekarang jadi SAHABAT ku:

mungkin kita memiliki banyak perbedaan, namun tak bisa dipungkiri lagi kalau aku sangan membutuhkanmu .. :p

MINAL AIDIN WAL FAIZIN YA.. MOHON MAAF LAHIR DA BATHIN.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI 1432 H, mizz you..

Hahaha, don't you think that the text above is so cool??! I love that so much !! I got that from my best friend/sister/godparent who is always there for me to listen, to give advices, to cheer me up, to comfort me, and even to share woman's secrets hihihi. She is Mbak Anggita. I love our relationship. I don't exaggerate, but this is exactly the most fascinating friendship I've ever had in this globe. 

Well, I don't send any saying yet to my friend, and perhaps I won't hehehe It's just too troublesome :) Sometimes, I think that I forgive all people's mistake. Don't care whether they forgive me or not. I'm simple, that's it!

Anyways, I'm gonna clean up my own room today ^^ Have a blessed day y'all !!! 

Pipit

Fatigued

Pheeewwhh !!!! Terribly need to have a long sigh, take a deep breath and let all my burden go. You know, this is the only night I can stay at home. My usual activity is working from 7 till 9 pm everyday, except Sundays. Oh God, it's nice to be in my room and writing on my blog while snacking hehehe. Perfectly lovely !!!!

I'm not fit yet after catching a very fucking cold since last week. How I hate rainy nose and sore throat!! It feels so terrible and irritating. Unfortunately, it got to be worse because I didn't have enough time for taking a rest. Working, working, and working. That's it! Actually I really need an off day for taking a rest, but it's pretty impossible because I'm working in a radio station. You know, uh? 

Lately, I've been thinking about my schedule. Really surprised to know that I have no holiday at all even on Lebaran day. This is insane, right? Sometimes, being loyal to your company is not always good. Yea, I'm a kind of loyal employee. I rarely complain about the schedule given to me, some of my partners often complain though. They complain if the given schedule doesn't suit them, surely without considering others. So, I've been observing that my boss doesn't really like to get a fuss. He prefers to give a little working time to my partners that usually complain and he gives me so much working time vice versa because I rarely complain about the schedule. Well, I always say that I won't complain if I can do that, but.. if it turns to be irrational, it's not fair!

From that case, I learn that sometimes I don't really need to be loyal if I'm treated unfairly. I got to say no, if others are able to say so. Moreover, my current boss doesn't seem very good at leading my company. He often makes wrong decisions and most of his reasons why he does this and that are not reasonable enough.

Anyway, my body feels going into pieces now. Never felt this exhausted before. But hey, it's always nice to fight for life and always stay strong. At least, I'm accustomed to be exhausted when someday, my life magically turns to be completely lovely hahaha. See y!

Pipit

Sometimes, Money Can Buy Happiness

"Why is everybody so obsessed? Money can't buy happiness."

Have you ever heard that lyrics? Yea, that's Jessie J's song, Price Tag. I love that song. The song is just about the people that worship money. Well, at least something like that. At first, I agree with the statement that money cannot buy happiness but here I come to one part of my life that has proven me wrong. Money exactly can buy happiness, sometimes. Let me argue :)

I am on the fifth semester of an undergraduate program in a private university in Magelang. I finance the tuition by myself and I work for that. To be frank, it's never easy to do both, to think about both, and to get both staying on the right track. Every time the pay day comes, I get dizzy. Hahaha, normally. I just always didn't have enough money to pay that, so I had to ask for a dispensation until I find that it magically turns into some millions rupiah. Oh my, I should ask for other dispensations over and over again. That was happening during 4 semesters. And you know, I'm famous as a dispensation princess :/ too bad.

Until, today, literally. I found that there's no space again for me to ask for dispensation. Just so you know, the university is still on process to be a state university, so there are many changes that will be compulsory firmly. One of the changes is about the dispensation. Many students, including me, are surprised about this decision. We are not allowed to ask for dispensation more than the tuition of a half semester, whereas, I still have about three millions rupiah that I haven't paid yet. Then, if I wanna continue my study, I must pay that fucking three millions rupiah. It gets me completely confused. Many of my friends feel the same.

In this case, I can't entirely blame the university. I honestly feel that actually, I should blame myself for being irresponsible about the tuition. And now, I have no clue what to do. I've been thinking how to solve this, but everything is still in blur. Meanwhile, my mind is also bothered by the thought about money.

Don't you frankly think that money, sometimes, can buy happiness? Please be honest. Sorry, I don't agree with you, Jessie J. Well, I must say that hypocrites won't admit my opinion. Yea, money is the only thing that is dominating the world. It's also the number one thing that people obsessed about. Come on, all people in this world are very busy earning money for living. Yet, they sacrifice so many things, such as their time, their family, their energy, their sanity, and even their honesty or to make it simple, they sacrifice everything they have (good and bad things) only to get money. Uhm.. It doesn't mean that I don't agree with the statement: Having so much money can't guarantee we'll always be happy. Don't get me wrong, of course I agree as well. But at least, the can indulge themselves by using the money they have and it will be easier for them to be happy and forget their problems by spending the money. If you say that they can spend it for doing bad things, that depends on them. Are they mature enough to use the money? It's just a matter of maturity.

So... as a girl that doesn't come from a rich family, I do know how it feels to be in trouble because of having no money. This is not the first time. I just need to be mature to see what I've been striving suddenly ends up. Well, that isn't what I want of course, that's just because I have no choice even though I've been looking for the solution. Sorry to say, in this case, I despise money.

Pipit

I'm Not Such A Fool :)

Do you believe in karma? Frankly, I do. Actually I just believe that whatever we did in the past time, there will be something that we get as a consequence. Well, I'm not going to explain about such a thing that actually depends on individual thought.

When I was on the last grade of Senior High School, to be honest, I was very stupid about boys. I just fell in love with some boys but never had any courage to express my feeling. You know how painful something like that is, huh? I felt that I was a stupid and even ugly girl that wasn't appealing at all. Moreover, studying was the number one goal that I was obsessed about. So... boys are not important for me. But, in 2007, something that really amazing happened. Something that people usually call as "falling in love". That was the very first time I knew how it feels to be loved by someone that I love too. What's funny about that is that I fell in love with my neighbor. Uuuh, too bad, right? But not too bad because the boy was very handsome for me hahahaha. He had a baby face and it was completely cute. Not to mention, he's a bit bad. Don't know why, I always think that bad boys are just awesome. All right, I must say that the boy was the person who start to approach me first. He just started to care about me and texted me very often. From that message, he indirectly expressed that he fell in love with me. I didn't fall in love with him at first, buy heeey man, could you just imagine how hard it is to ignore such a sweet boy??!!? He's just too mesmerizing :'D

Talking about falling in love, by the way I'd never believed in people common saying that when we're falling in love, there will be decreasing appetite, gigantic happiness, and uncontrolled thought. Okay, the boy proved me wrong. Oh my, I was feeling that kind of fucking feelings for about a week. So crazy !! Then I always believe after.

At that time, of course I was extremely happy. Deep inside, I was so proud of having a very cute boy as my first love hahaha. We went to some places, to his friends' houses and sometimes we spent the time only at home. On the first week, everything seemed to be so great, but on the second week, he started to be a little bit strange, moreover his behavior. I was having no clues about that. Until one night, after we'd been together for a month, he briefly confessed that he's ashamed of having a relationship with me. Admitting that he was afraid about what would our neighbors say about us, about our closeness. Then he decided to end up the relationship and everything was done.

You know, it hurt me like hell !!!! How could he think about the neighbors without thinking about what I exactly fell. It's insane that he preferred to leave me and hurt me after he drove me crazy only because he's ashamed of what our neighbors would say. He's just a devil. A very much bad devil. But well, I had no option, all I could do was just accepting what he wanted and of course crying out loud. Let me say that this was also the very first time my heart was broken. The very first time I'm played. It totally sucked. And it's damn bad to realize that I was living my daily life on the last grade of school suffering heartaches. I didn't even think about the fucking final exam. I was mentally hopeless.

For heaven sake, I'd never thought that it would affect too much to my life. I'm stupid that I could not forget him. I always hoped that he would come back to me, said sorry for hurting me, and asked me to be his girlfriend, again. But well, let me say that I was just too disgustingly imaginative. That never happened, but I was still staying at that feeling for almost two years. I never stopped looking for information about him. During two years, he dated many girls without caring this poor girl :'(

Fortunately, the illumination eventually came in 2009. I was starting my new activities as a student in a university. I met many people that brought me to the new chapter of my life. I dated some boys hahaha and I was starting to forget about my ex. It was very great time for me to heal my heartaches slowly. Some boys tried to approach me and they just made me feel more confident and worth it. I was not the ugly and stupid girl anymore, I said to myself too confidently. Here I came to change my life.

Nevertheless, my love life didn't go so well. Sometimes I played someone's heart :D and sometimes I'm played again. But I didn't think too much about that and still believed that I would find my prince charming at the right time. Hell yeah, I finally found him. He's my current boyfriend and we've been being together for 16 months. Yea, tomorrow will be literally our anniversary. I'm so happy to have him. He's the most sincere boy that I've ever met in my life. Don't get me wrong, he's handsome and sweet as well. I get to be so fortunate as his girlfriend :')

Hmm... but I smell something infuriating lately. My ex or just say my first boy has been texting me these past two days. I hate that he used the ":*" when he texted me. It's like he's trying to approach me again. No no, I just want to still be pally to him and all of my ex-boys as well. And I don't like to know that he compares it as a signal that I still love him. No way !!! I'm not stupid about boys anymore. Being with you will get me to the worst dramas and heartaches ever !!! I cannot stand that at all.

I promise that I will currently keep my relationship with my current boy well. We're happy couple. Many of my friends are envious to our relationship. And I'm so proud of having my current boy. Hopefully, he'd be the last boy that bring me to an endless happy life. Amin. Hahaha... it's just too long blog post, isn't it ??? So, bye for now.

Love,

Pipit ^^

Hi, I'm A Drama Queen !

I hate when it doesn't work both ways.

Saya sangat mengerti kalo pacaran itu gak selalu mudah, gak selalu enak, gak selalu menyenangkan. Malahan bisa dibilang, yang namanya makan ati udah jadi menu wajib sehari-hari. Apalagi kalo pacarannya sama saya yang notabene adalah seorang Drama Queen. Perasaan saya itu sensitifnya ampun-ampunan. Ditambah lagi karena saya orangnya detail dan sangat peka. Udah deh, kalo nyangkut soal hati langsung ngenes sendiri.

Prinsip yang saya ajukan ke pacar adalah soal komunikasi dan privasi. Tentang komunikasi, jelas saya selalu ingin komunikasi lancar dan pastinya berjalan dua arah. Ketika ada sesuatu yang penting, segeralah sampaikan. Terlebih jika itu masalah yang menyangkut hubungan kita. Korban hati bakal berjatuhan kalo sampai gak dikomunikasikan dan dicari solusinya dengan segera. Saya juga cukup percaya kalo kebanyakan hubungan, entah pertemanan, hubungan kerja, dan bahkan pacaran, sering jadi berantakan hanya karena satu hal miscommunication. Gak cuman satu dua kali aja saya ngalamin hal itu, belajar dari orang-orang di sekitar pun ternyata mereka mengalami hal yang sama. Jadi, komunikasi udah jadi kebutuhan yang harus disiapkan sebelum memutuskan menjalin sebuah hubungan.

Sementara itu, yang kedua adalah privasi. Kalo yang satu ini sih sebenernya saya ragu apakah orang lain setuju sama saya ato enggak. Bisa dibilang, saya sangat giat menjaga privasi hubungan pacaran saya. Lebih-lebih kalo itu soal hal buruk yang saya temuin dalam hubungan pacaran saya. Bisa jadi ada masalah, atau kejelekan sifat pasangan, ato hal lain yang bisa disebut aib. Gak penting banget kan orang lain tau aib seseorang dan pacarnya sendiri yang mengumbar ?!! Sangat gak penting ! Buat saya, cukuplah orang tau kabar bahagia aja dari hubungan pacaran saya. Cukuplah mereka tau bahwa saya dan pacar baik-baik saja. Saya ingin hubungan pacaran saya menginspirasi mereka, membuat mereka bangga sama saya dan pacar, menjadi contoh yang baik, bukan menjadi bahan gosip mereka karena saya dan pacar punya kejelekan yang sebenernya masih simpang siur. Oke, anggap aja saya berlebihan. Tapi bagi saya itu sangat penting. Apalagi jaman sekarang situs jejaring sosial udah semakin vulgar. Hampir semua orang punya kebiasaan mengemberkan privasinya sendiri di berbagai macam situs jejaring sosial. 

Nah... saya paling sebel sama yang satu ini. Sama kebiasaan seseorang, entah teman, pacar, rekan kerja, ato bahkan sodara sekalipun yang lebih milih nyampein keberatan atau ketidaksetujuan sama saya di facebook. Hello ???? ngomong langsung gak bisa ya ??? Masa iya malah lebih seneng ngomognya sama orang lain, yang gak kenal pula ! ckckck... dipikir masalah bisa selese ??? Orang gak waras aja ngerti banget jawabannya. Kadang kita gak mikir kalo dengan mendeklamasikan status di FB, sama aja kita membuka aib orang dan membentuk stereotype buruk tentang orang tersebut. Ya, manusia emang tempatnya salah dan lupa, tapi gak perlu diproklamirkan ke seluruh dunia juga kan?!

Paling benci juga kalo saya, di satu sisi, mati-matian menutup-nutupi, sementara di sisi lain, semuanya diumbar habis-habisan secara jelas dan terang. Phew... ! Itulah yang saya gak suka dari situs jejaring sosial. Semua orang berubah jadi gila perhatian, gila anggapan, gila tanggapan, padahal kenal sama orangnya aja enggak. Jadi, pentingnya apa ???? Nothing !

Oke, post kali ini saya tulis sambil emosi hehehe. Tapi cukup bersyukur juga sih, soalnya gara-gara emosi, saya jadi ada tindakan buat nulis lagi, kalo gak ya janji hanyalah tinggal janji hehehe.

Bye,

Pipit